As I was editing my instavlog, I felt called to share something with you:
I wanted to remind people that life through someone's instagram account is often far from the entire truth. Especially mine. Even if some things are instant, a lot what I post is well curated, I get opinions from friends before posting, we take 20 of the same photo and then spend time editing a photo and revisit it later to make sure I'm happy with my work.
I know I value community, SO much. The problem was, I am not a huge quality time love language person, but I learnt that a lot of my friends didn't know how much I really loved them because I didn't always make the time. Ever since, I've set aside hours of my day to spend with people I hold close to my heart, people I want to get to know or at events where I can show that you can choose joy in the midst of crap in your personal life. That is why my life seems so "fun and "busy"!
I get upset when people meet me or haven't seen me in a while and say that my "life is so cool". It's SO not. I follow and know many people who do way more interesting things. Maybe I have learnt to make my one interesting activity of the day more exciting.
I have held off on posting any instavlogs since I got my laptop back because I heard that people thought I shared my life for a lot of the wrong reasons, including seeking attention and online validation. That really hurt my confidence because I want to capture my fav moments so I can re watch them, I'm sharing a product I'm doing an honest review for or I want to give others some fun activity ideas.
I post a couple boomerangs and pictures In a story. That is me sharing 1 minute of the day and that leaves 23 hours and 59 minutes of my life that is unseen. There are people I hang out with weekly that never make it on any of my social media because we are having so much fun or I just choose to keep that time between us. I often don't know where my phone even is and I'm the worst at replying to texts if I am around friends. I am alone for a majority of my day, I stay up late to edit or work in order to make up for the time I spent hanging out during the day. I'm working on it. I am setting reminders to text people back, creating structure in my workflow and I'm fully trusting that God has a plan for me in every season of life.
Posting on social media is my part time job. I literally went to school to learn how to understand marketing & social media communications. Which gave me an advantage to how I could use my blog and photography as a source of income. I wouldn't do it unless I loved it and felt that I was capable of using it in a positive and healthy way. I love seeing what everyone is up to on snapchat & instagram. I have made friends through these apps. I love how creative people are with their themes, story editing and photography skills! I am in awe when I see my youth kids sharing the gospel through these platforms. I think this is a safe place to show your talents, captured moments and your style. We need to just celebrate and be happy for each other, rather than compare and critique.
If you're reading this, I'm not sure where you are at. Maybe you see people on instagram and envy what they wear, how they look and what they are doing. Perhaps you are the one spending hours on VSCO and Facetune trying to make your picture perfect. I don't know, you could be someone who is living an entire different life through social media.
Some of the most worldwide famous people are weird. They are themselves ! They are so original and own it. This is going to sound cheesy. But own who you are. Just try it and let me know how that works out for you? Are you happier ? Because when I started being myself in every aspect of my life, even online... it really changed my life. Sometimes I'm sure I'm a little much to handle, my energy is a little over the top when I'm tired and I'm emotional over the smallest things. But I leave so many situations going wow, these people still love and want to hang out with me even if I'm borderline crazy. I hope you find those people, I hope you find a love for yourself and pride and ownership in your gifts that you've been given. You have something different that I do to share with the world, and I would love to see you using it to your fullest capacity.